Wauld DanZ - Will I (2016) - 06. Horrid Prayer

I feel that it's my dark time
I need your help, just hear a chime.
I'm praying for you,
God, I just ask a few
You're only my hope, my support.
My glory and power, oh God
Why you so cruel to me?
Why I must bear so much hurt?
Shall I do not reserve clemency...
I try hard and work for every day
And every night devote to you, God.
But in justify I hear only silence
Candles cracking and nothing more...

Suddenly my mind fogged,
Memories came flooding
From my past.
Damned, what is it?
Am I drugged or sick?
But voice inside of me told
That this memoirs
I see for a great reason.

Everything in me, that I can see,
Terrible things, they scaring me.
I do not care that it has fee
For all my bright juvenility.
Problems of my friends wasn't my concern
I throwing relatives in troubles and sorrow.
Never thought, that my fucking vanity
Turn against me!
Because...

When my life is fully destroyed
There is no one, who want to help me
Everyone remembered, what I have done
And send me to eat heap of shit.
They paid me back with the same coin
But then I didn't understand...
Now I recognize my mistake
And now is time to pay check.

There is no reason to prey,
There is silly explain away
No one must reply for your acts
When it is all done.
But if you in time awake it
But if you want let to mend it,
You have chance to fix all horrid,
All in your hands! (2 times)